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Best. Song. Ever. [Aug. 22nd, 2011|12:25 am]
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I didn't think I could find a song that knows EXACTLY what a person with depression goes through, but I finally found it... in the form of an insanely catchy J-pop song. The lyrics are just amazing and captures the exact thought process of someone who is depressed. It's not about a spoiled child wangsting about her grievances and pain (I'm looking at you Simple Plan <<), but how she feels numb and essentially worthless, as if her very existence were a waste of people's time. She's been disillusioned, which leads her to question everything, thinking she's been a fool the entire time. She has no idea who she is and can't trust humanity anymore. Then after some time she acknowledges how selfish she is, but still can't find the heart to give a damn about anyone or anything else, which leads to another cycle of feeling worthless. She can't lift a finger because she feels like she makes things worse, so she bides her time and prays that things will go better without her intervention. At the end of it all, she is just a very tired and emotionally exhausted person, and resigns to numbing herself to keep from feeling any more pain.

In the end that's what depression feels like: Tiring and numbing, with a dull ache. Repeat for X amount of years.

A few of the lyrics:
"Is there a future for someone like me? Do I belong in this world?
"Merely walking leaves me exhausted. So how could I care about anyone else?"
"Sadness only leaves me exhausted. And I'd rather live my days feeling nothing."

So onto the video! The animation is just beautiful.

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(no subject) [Aug. 18th, 2011|06:00 pm]
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Dear London rioters,

While your initial protests were certainly warranted when it was still peaceful, your rioting and looting of your fellow citizens is absolutely despicable. You never had the moral high ground to justify hurting others so stop it. All you are doing is fueling hatred and greedy consumerism into the world because of your actions. The world does not see you as better people. You are not role models for anybody. The moment you hurt others, you lost all grounds of principle and morality. Just stop it.

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Yes, I am clearly out of touch with the news by several weeks. Sue me.
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(no subject) [Aug. 13th, 2011|11:00 pm]
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/人◕‿‿◕人\
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OMG new OTP!!!! [Jul. 30th, 2011|08:41 pm]
subtle_overlord
Homura/Madoka
Kyoko/Sayaka

^__^

It's definitely been a while.
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Smugness knows no boundaries [Jul. 18th, 2011|11:30 pm]
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(no subject) [Jul. 16th, 2011|03:23 pm]
subtle_overlord
In all honesty, I fear Hell more than I love Heaven.
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(no subject) [Jun. 30th, 2011|07:20 pm]
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I hate people who message like this...
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FUCKING ELLIPSES!
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(no subject) [Jun. 24th, 2011|02:20 am]
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If postmodernists ruled the world there would be no evil. Instead there would be "philosophically deviant" people.

Credit: http://survivingtheworld.net/Lesson982.html

Fuck postmodernism. Fuck political correctness.
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Theme song [Jun. 12th, 2011|09:36 am]
subtle_overlord
Most people think of Vitamin C's one hit wonder. I'm just going to be content with The Lazy Song.

Oh God I think I'm gonna puke.
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Message [May. 31st, 2011|09:57 am]
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I always thought the idea that "Man plans and God laughs" was really cruel*. My interpretation of that sentence is that while Man is down on Earth planning the daily minutiae of his life, God just sits there on his almighty throne above and amuses himself as he watches man's frantic antics at trying to make himself useful in society. Maybe I misunderstand the quote but just the idea that God can sit there and deem our actions laughable in the long run really just bothers me. It makes everything we've ever lived or fought for seem trivial. Like, whether we win first or second place, how rich we are, or even how much the world loves or doesn't love us, "doesn't matter". Man's actions are intrinsically meaningless when there is a bigger plan or a higher plane of existence involved, according to God.

And I'm saying no. It DOES matter. Our emotions, our willingness to fight for our dignity and find our place in the world, what flavor ice cream to get, our skin color, and our desire to indulge ourselves in the finest things of life is not meaningless. Maybe it doesn't matter to God because he sits there high and mighty on his stupid throne, but it is meaningful for the man who inhabits a human body and lives on earth. So long as we inhabit such an environment, our human and earthly desires take precedence over other wants and needs. So long as we inhabit this environment, we are forced to make complex decisions that mean the difference between life and death. We cried. We agonized. We hurt each other. We succumbed to raw emotion. Why? Because somewhere down the line we believed that fighting for this earthly experience meant something. We plan because we have to and unless you can empathize with us then shut the fuck up. For you to laugh on your stupid throne and believe our actions and decisions were all laughable in the end is the most cruel thing you could have ever done.

*I honestly do not know if I interpreted this quote correctly or if it had some underlying ironic meaning/metaphor. I'm just taking it at face value for what it is. I heard this quote the other day and it infuriates me that it is supposed to be taken as an enlightened piece of knowledge with no context whatsoever.
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